I'm 30, still TTC. It's Father's Day... etc

Hello everyone. I'm stopping by for a quick update.
I'm 30! I turned 30 on May 14th. May 16-19 I was in Vegas having the time of my life, it was sure a special way to ring in my 30's. For the months leading up to my 30's I sobbed, I was depressed. I tried to do things that I had never done before. I was determined to complete this list and had this fear that I was leaving my 20's and I would never see them again and there was going to be this huge change.... especially not being a mother. Little did I know that turning 30 would fell fantastic! I feel sexier. I feel different! I was surprised in Vegas by my husband and friends and taken to dinners, shows, limo rides... I dressed in tight skirts, wore expensive make up, had my hair and nails done. Things I NEVER DO. Not to sound vain, but Boy, OH Boy, I felt good. I realized that my life is just starting! My 20's were more child-like. They were not the best, they were stepping stones. I've made adjustments and for some reason, since I've come home from Las Vegas, DH and I have been closer than ever. It has been beautiful.

I've had some severe pain and been sick, but it has not stopped me from feeling very close to my husband. Our marriage has gone somewhere I've never seen it go! It's probably not because I've turned 30, but simply because I've let go of the idea that age and surroundings matter. What matters is that our love will always remain.

Today is Father's day. I woke my sweet DH up this morning with a card. As you know he has a boy that we rarely see. In fact, we have not seen him in months... but still he is a Father no matter what. We also had cards and gifts on our front porch from family. I took him to a cute mom and pop restaurant down the street for breakfast and now he's watching the world cup, then we will bbq and swim in our pool. I know he's hanging onto the hope that his little boy will call him today, and I can only pray. This day is not always easy, but we can celebrate it with a smile, no matter what.

I can also pray that one day this ttc journey will take us to a road where we can become a family together. I've had some very vivid dreams lately of children. I wake up in tears and always talk to DH about the dreams, and they are reoccurring. We have discussed medical treatment again, and still feel that is in our future, but do not want the stress and disappointments just yet. We are BD'ing quite often. Using softcups quite often. Just having fun in our marriage for now, more serious ttc will come with treatments and appointments--- we're just not ready for that road again--quite yet.

I'm staying busy working full time, (plus over time) planning several parties for friends and holidays, diving into photography, keeping up a household, and enjoying being 30 alongside my 33 year old adorable husband!

Thank you to all of you who still support and follow my journey and pray for us. I'm forever grateful.

Keeping my mind busy lately

I've been reaching a "before 30 goal" by diving deep into a passion, something I've always wanted to do!

PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!

Can I ask your support by going and "liking" my Facebook Photography page?

https://www.facebook.com/aStormyEdenPhotography

Thank you SO MUCH in advance!

You know, we all need an outlet. Something to keep our minds from the dreaded INFERTILITY (though we have to face it at least once a month!)

I'm challenging you all to dive deep into something you've always wanted to do. GO!

It's invigorating!

Much Love----

Dropped some Poundage and the rest is all over the place

Here are three pictures showing some weight loss. Last time on my blog I believe I was still maybe 235ish? Now I am 202lbs some days 205 as shown in these pictures. I CANNOT wait to break the 200's! I need to get back into the serious workout grind. I've just been eating a lot better than before and watching my portions. I'm way more active with my job and on weekends. So I think that helped with the last 30 lbs.


This month for supplements I've used:
-Vitamin D
-Folic Acid
-B6
-B12
-Iodine
-Maca Root

Today I am on Cycle Day 27 of a normal 31-34 day cycle. BFN this AM. I actually called in sick for the first time in a very, very long time! I was over-exhausted and for the past several days I've had terrible stomach/bathroom problems and did not want to have that at work. I'm pretty positive THIS CYLCLE is not THE CYCLE... but I'm hopeful this is MY YEAR. I am praying for hope and faith.

In less than 4 months I will be 30. I have a lot I want to accomplish before I hit 30.

-Be under 190
-Healthier/faster
-Start a hobby I've always wanted to do in my 20s
-Dress sexier on my dates with my DH

and so many more.


For inspiration I follow some amazing PCOS fitness ladies on Instagram who lift me up and inspire me to want to change. I know it is possible. Thank you to all who are still out there thinking of me, praying and rooting for me and encouraging me. It means the world!

I FIGHT LIKE A GIRL :D #PCOS

I've Come out of hiding!

And I'm back!

From my TTC break :) We didn't get pregnant. OBVIOUSLY.

We have had tons of ups and downs. It has been a very emotional several months. I've been busy out of my mind. I've traveled. Worked and worked and worked overtime. I've dealt with an awful and toxic ex, and visitation battles, I've dealt with finding a long lost sibling and having him back in my life. I've managed to take on a lot more work at my job and DH is working more hours. I've managed to somehow make it through all of the holidays. We've had some amazing memories these past few months, and have also surpassed some of the hardest struggles yet.

DH and I survived.
The Love Dare and prayer has saved us.

Now we are here, and ready to start trying for a family again. We are focused and stronger than ever. We have a plan set, goals, and finances set. Most importantly- we are emotionally ready for the struggle ahead. We know the road will be bumpy. We are ready to carry each other and hold each other up through the struggles. Here's to another year TTC.

***Baby Dust***

Living

It has been months....
Not much has changed. We are both working all of the time! We have my stepson most weekends. He keeps us super busy!

We are not currently medically ttc. We are saving money as our needed treatments will be super costly.
We don't try anymore. Whatever happens, happens--whenever we have time and energy. I've stopped obsessing and don't buy tests monthly anymore. I don't temp or track ovulation.

Our life is work, stepson, vacations, pets, house. For now I'm okay with that!

We are in a wonderful position if I were to miraculously fall pregnant, we would be so happy and financially, emotionally, and spiritually stable, we are just pretty sure its not going to miraculously happen!

God has a super great plan for me and He will never leave my side! I'm glad He leads my marriage, and my life.

Life is good.

A picture is worth a thousand words...

Fertility Dreams....