HERE IT GOES, I AM OPENING MYSELF UP TO SHARE MY JOURNEY WITH THE WORLD, ESPECIALLY FOR WOMEN GOING THROUGH WHAT I AM RIGHT NOW. MAY YOU FIND ANSWERS AND KNOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
My dear husband and I were married 10/23/2010..he is my very best friend, the love of my life, and my true soul mate.
Robert (husband) and I decided we wanted a family about two years into our relationship. At that point we started trying. We wanted children more than anything. We struggled through a few miscarriages, and tons of negative pregnancy tests. After Robert proposed, about two months into our engagement I decided to stop trying so hard, as wedding planning was stressful enough. We decided not to use contraception, but not focus so hard on charting, and scheduled baby making.
After the amazing and wonderful wedding, and even more amazing honeymoon--we moved into our first house. Remodels began almost instantly. We started trying to conceive again! Month after month it was BFN after BFN (big fat negative). I knew something wasn't right as my cycles were no where near regular. And I'd go months without af! This is when I decided to call.After months of waiting and waiting, my husband and I finally got an appointment with a well known Fertility Specialist. During the wait I found out tons of friends and family members were expecting. I was devastated, envious and heart broken. AF finally came five days before my appointment... how nice!
The night before our appointment was so anxiety ridden it was nuts!
That morning after tons of prayers, Robert drove me to our appointment. And, OH MY GAWSH it was the longest time in the waiting room!
To my surprise, this doctor was the most compassionate doctor I have ever met in my life. He listened, answered all of our questions and gave us hope. He told me I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). He told us success rates and stories. He prescribed me with the fertility drug Clomid 50mg. He wanted me to take it on Cycle days 5-9 and asked when my the first day of my LMP was, I said five days ago! He said, perfect, go home and start! He gave us confidence! I was filled with hope again, at least Robert and I now knew there was still hope, and we just might need help to conceive.